Life is Glamorous...

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Weekends, indicating the time period acceptable to use drugs, first started on Fridays with a low key sex party lasting until saturday downtime, or pre-club time. This was the time to come down a bit and get more favors ready for the evening.

Saturday night clubbing made me feel like I was finally somebody. I got to dance with the half-naked in-crowd at the hot clubs and circuit parties. Such a sense of unity was felt after pushing my way to the center of a dance floor packed with sweaty, grinding bodies moving together and sharing so much love...

And in addition to sharing their love, they shared their bumpers and spoons and other favors in that search for unity. And how quickly the bodies moved away from someone falling to the floor or being carried away from a drug overdose. When I think about clubbing now, I also remember the intense looks on everyone's faces in the inner circle. If dance is about rejoice, why was no one smiling. Why were all jaws set firmly while furtively glancing around before doing the bump bend. Why were people wearing sunglasses inside at night on a dance floor. Where did sunday go and why was I crying on Tuesdays that my life was so empty before doing a bump and picking up the phone to start planning next weekend?

Why do I, or the addict in me, miss it at times?

My weekends now start on friday again- after a productive, relatively stress free work week. Friday night I go to a recovery meeting and than to fellowship with the group. We generally go out to eat and than sit and talk. Generally I get to bed about midnight on friday- after a long work week, its nice to go to bed thinking about my day off on saturday. Saturday morning is spent doing chores and than I have the rest of the day to spend with various friends from recovery groups before or after meetings. Who knew there were so many activities to do during the day.

Sunday morning, I get up early, as opposed to having stayed up since friday, start my day with a recovery meeting and than head off to work. Working sundays in Chelsea is quite an experience- I get to smile and flirt with people all day. I get to also see guys running home with their sunglasses on before the sun gets them. Sunday after work, I get together with friends from my fellowship or simply go home to try pursue a new hobby, book or simply watch TV.

Wow- It seems like I get through my weekends now without drugs, developing meaningful relationships with others and with myself, doing and seeing things without sunglasses and finally rejoicing in my life.

I guess my life is still pretty glamorous.

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